3:39am and I can't sleep. Just feeling out of sorts with myself, with the world, with everything.

Guess it's one of those classic cases of wanting something so much and fighting so long and hard for it for such a long time that when u finally get it, u just dunno what to do...

I don't have a direction right now. I'm personally lost. I'm on my feet and carrying on with work and watching tv and doing things... but I'm really just wandering about aimlessly. Aimless. Nothing is driving me right now... or is it no one?

*sigh*

Well I guess this is a necessary part of moving on. I haven't been this lonesome in a long while. This bickering has definitely made me more introverted and introspective... More than good. But yeah I won't be the same forever. And being the borderline introvert/extrovert I am, it's not surprising in the circumstances. Tho people who don't know me well will yelp and claim there's no difference. No one knew me like she did...

Will I find someone else who syncs as well or better with me? I dunno. But i guess finding a better fit in terms of lifestyles would definitely help. Gotta follow my own golden rule of compatibility. And find my direction in life again...

*sigh*

I hope it's found sooner than later... Work life won't give me such luxuries of late nights....

Ok let's try the bed again....