This has been a very very long week for me..

The feeling of being stuck in an ever deepening hole of court dates, filing deadlines, letters to be sent out, expectations to meet, bosses to please, secretaries to manage, opposing counsel to deal with, research to do, documents to draft, emails to reply to, bills to render, clients to discuss with and drive u up the wall...

It's a feeling that's grwon stronger and more overwhelming with each passing week. Each passing week which has begun to meld into the next as my weekends have increasingly become a misnomer.

I am weary.

Life is not meant to be this way.

"you are learning alot.. Other won't get this much exposure.. You can do it with time management.." my boss chides me

"litigation is fast paced..we're all swamped.. It will get better as you become more experience.." All the encouraging words from the partners

it will pay off after 2-3 years... they tell me...

But will I even get that far to reap the fruits of all this toiling. Will I get past 2-3 months more of this? And more critically, will the supposed fruit be worth it?...

I have had a long week that started last weekend.. and that linked up with the weekend before that at work... Or was it the week before?

I've lost track.

I'm inundated. And weary.

I hardly see my mum, though we put up in the same house. I'm hardly having quality time with my gf, and she works just a building away from me.

I haven't seen my friends.... nor my movies.... or my beloved tv...

Thank goodness ms tt got me the iPod which gives some semblance of sanity on my bus rides home... The little that keeps me from the brink at that time of night where I feel like I'm an overworked slave, a liability to my firm, a case study in personal failure and a disappointment to me loved ones, all at once...

I was just talkin to my boss today and we were trying to recall a hearing we made a certain comment.. It seemed like long ago... But lo and Behold the attendance notes revealed, it was last friday. And monday's hearing which was related to today's seemed an eternity ago...

And like I said I don't even recall my losuy excuse for a weekend....

Anyways as my good fren murphy usually does, to cap it all off...

I just lost my mobile.

Yes.

It's been a looong week.

Time to sleep..

Cos it's the 'weekend' tomorrow..

Maybe I'll find the time to blog on my work station this saturday... maybe...

Don't hold your breath...