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It's just that I don't know what's real and what's not.
I want to believe baby.

Just scares me that you lived that front with me. But granted there were your reasons and I guess we were getting to know each other and u needed to be able to trust me. And hopefully this means now u can.
Yet, my logical brain is asking me whether I can trust u.

But my heart. My heart is leading me down the garden path again.
This is like the biggest leap of faith. And I've taken a few.
And despite all that I've learnt. I'm taking a chance again and I want to.
So pls hold this fragile heart and treat it with care.

I will much more pathetic than a broken man if this falls through.
Don't break me this boy's hopes, belief and heart pls. He doesn't have much left if at all. I'm in your hands.

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So why was it you left k 2 weeks before the wedding?
If it suited u, why didn't u get it done.
Then what's with the broken heart. How?
The earlier marriage. When was that?
Didn't that solve your problem?
Where would they send u to? You're singaporean right?

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Kinda freaked. All these conspiracies and insinuations and conjectures, based on things that don't seem to be there. Unjustified.
Like my mum. when she had her schizophrenic episode.
You'll let me bring for treatment if you need it right? :(

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I love surprises but they haven't been nice ones lately.
Promise me there won't be any more flips baby.
Cos the only surprises I hope to get are fun, happy, sexy or sweet ones.
You'll give me those right? Hee.
<3 your baby

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