Half a yr on and nothing's changed. How easily I come undone..
She wants to come by which but I can't bear to face her yet. The feelings are still too strong. I'd surely be overcome. I thot I was ok..
But just some msgs and everything floods back. I just feel inadequate with her. Not up to her expectations. Not up to her parents' expectations. Simply inadequate.
*sigh*
I love her so much and I always wish it could work out... Not good for you, my head says, u're not compatible for her....Yet despite it all, my heart won't let go.
It never truly will.. But in time perhaps I will be strong enough to see her again. But for now, I must fight this desire... Till I can truly handle it.
Oh how pathetic my baggage is. How easily I come undone..